Wednesday, May 30, 2012

A Disconcerting Trend


I sit here with an uncomfortable feeling in my gut. It is a feeling that has been around for a long time now. Sometimes the feeling seems to have teeth that gnaw at me, other times it lays dormant, maybe for a week, maybe a few months; whatever the case it continues to rear its ugly head.

I have been unsure of whether or not to blog this, but here I go (so maybe it is time?).

The disconcerting trend that makes me anxious is a growing idolatry of certainty within churches, and pejorative name calling by those within the church. These two things seem to be on the rise, slowly but surely, they march on to dominate and oppress others who do not fit the mould. I am experiencing and witnessing this trend within Abbotsford, as well as in the greater area of the lower mainland. The trend has been growing recently (or maybe I am simply continuing to become more aware of it).

I have two examples of the pejorative verbatim tossed around in churches, in Bible College, and even in conversations between friends. These two examples point toward an underlying sentiment, which I believe is one factor in the rise of idolizing certainty. The first example comes from far away (better to attack what is at a distance before striking too near the heart). Three years ago in Israel, while learning about the physical and geographical settings of the Bible, I was confronted by “maximalist” and “minimalist”. These terms regarded the “group” a certain scholar or idea fit. For example, are these group of rocks store houses or stables? One position was maximalist, one was minimalist. The “maximalists” held to a certain position, usually that which “agreed” with the Bible, and the “minimalist” position would conclude differently. Both positions looked at the same evidence, and considered the Bible, and came to different conclusions (it is my opinion that both groups we guilty of cooking the evidence at times). The problem that arises, the thing that rubs me the wrong way, is that once the groupings were established the way the terms were used became harmful. This occurred in Israel, by the end of the trip if you thought a “minimalist” position might be right there was a stigma sent in your direction. You obviously had weak faith, you did not believe the Bible (or at least you do not take it seriously), you may not be saved, you were sub par, and you might even be a “liberal”! The classification of “minimalist” became a pejorative.

The second example is quickly growing in the vernacular of the circles I skirt. It is defence of one’s ideas by entrenching one’s self based on having a “high view of scripture”. This subsequently implies, or has even be explicitly stated, that the one with whom he or she disagrees has a “low view of scripture”. It has been my experience, and some of those around me, that this is incredibly hurtful, often said without proper thought or care for the other, and can be invested with a derogatory tone.

Here are some thoughts/responses to this pejorative usage: A) simply because you land in one place and someone else disagrees does not mean he or she has a “low view of scripture”, there have been disagreements for as long as religion has existed (so get off your “high” horse). B) One’s worldview often dictates one’s conclusions more than external evidence. Scripture might not even be the actual argument or disagreement; rather there may be a clash of worldview. So, if one dogmatically claims the “high view of scripture” without plenty of self-critique and humility, he or she exudes arrogance, pride, self-righteousness, and ignorance. C) Just because the historical/grammatical method of exegesis and interpretation lead to one answer it does not mean it is the “correct” answer or interpretation. It was not simply arrived at because of one’s “high view of scripture”. There are a plethora of interpretive methods, and a vast array of interpretations within each method, so honestly consider some alternative possibilities. D) Someone might hold such a “high view of scripture” that they have spent their entire life studying, reading, investing resources, listening to others, caring for others, and re-thinking faith. This person may eventually come to a new or different conclusion because of their “high view of scripture”, so to then label this new view as having it base in a “low view of scripture” is to slander the other.

Whew, it feels nice to get that off my internet chest. Which leads us to the new atheists (fundamentalists), atheists, as those who rely on the idolatry of certainty. Positions arrived at by the underlying disposition that manifests itself in pejorative language.

Rolling beneath these trends of pejorative vernacular is a more disconcerting movement. It is a movement of correctness. Not political correctness or the certainty that 2+2=4 within the agreed upon public consciousness (“where as 2+2=5”, as my dad would say, “in very high values of 2”). No, “correctness” in the manner of “I am right” (implying all others to be wrong). This “correctness” lies in the outflow of certainty. The need for certainty, or rather the religious crutch of certainty, which will lead to a behaviour of “correctness”. This may manifest itself is such statements as “I know what I know”, or “ask questions, find answers”, or “don’t read that! He or she is a heretic”, or “maybe it is more…but it is certainly not less”. It is in such statements that idols are erected. Idols that stand in the place of something or more often then not someone. The idol of certainty limits our ability to interact with each other as well as God. For if we are certain of God or another, we implicitly demote him or her or God from the position of a free agent or person to the realm of object, where actions are known and can be calculated. Such object interactions are bound to fail, people continue to surprise, and God continues to defy boxes.

Certainty, and the idolization of it, manifests itself in both Atheism and Fundamentalism (given there are exceptions, I know some great doubting Atheists, as well as a few questioning fundamentalists). Certainty had it heyday with modernism. “I think therefore I am”, “only that which can be proven through the scientific method can be known”, “the Bible says…”, etc. This time gave rise to atheism as it is commonly understood as well as religious fundamentalism. These two groups are not very far apart in their mode of thought, rather they reflect each other, not as estranged cousins but more like . Both appear to lack an epistemological humility, and a disposition towards the knower’s fallibility.

I’ll leave it at that, knowing I am probably wrong ;)

Monday, May 28, 2012

Harry Potter Pilgrimage

Summer is a time to hang out with friends; for me this involves hanging out with Harry Potter. This is quickly becoming my summer-time tradition. Year after year, as the sun comes out and the earth warms, I pull out my books, dust off the covers, and begin a few thousand page journey.

This year I am trying to make the journey last. I am trying to read a book I have not read before in between each book of the Harry Potter series. So far it is going well.

Yesterday, I finished "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets". Today, I finished "Dead Aid" by Dambisa Moyo (an interesting alternative take on aid and development, but unfortunately still built on the fundamental belief that growth is good and infinite). Which means, I get to start "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" tonight!

Dumbledore continues to blow my mind, and is undoubtedly my favorite character. Here is a short extract to brighten your day:

"It [the sorting hat] only put me in Gryffindor,' said Harry in a defeated voice, 'because I asked not to go in Slytherin...'
'Exactly,' said Dumbledore, beaming once more. 'Which makes you very different from Tom Riddle. It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.' Harry sat motionless in his chair, stunned."

Sunday, May 13, 2012

How (Not) To Speak Of God


This is the latest in a string of Peter Rollins books that I have read. I began three months ago with “The Orthodox Heretic”, then last month I read his new book “Insurrection”, and presently I have just finished his first book “How (Not) To Speak Of God”.

Peter writes postmodern/emergent theology, or as he would call it a/theology. I have been thoroughly enjoying his creativity that leads to his conclusions, specifically the use of theology and philosophy in parallel to arrive at similar conclusions yet respecting their differences. Alongside this, there is creative story telling and logical anti-logic. He sharply critiques modern thought with thorough deconstruction, constantly drawing on the greats of Freud, Nietzsche, and Marx.

“How (Not) To Speak Of God” will be the reason Rollins will continue to have a voice in the emergent conversation. I have not read a book like it before. It was unapologetically idealistic. It was refreshing to leave behind pragmatic arguments and semantics and to chart a radical new course. Though I liked the first two books I read, this book had me on the edge of my seat (probably to the annoyance of my roommates who experienced the book through my retelling). The book is deeply rooted in the apophatic Christian tradition in an attempt to move beyond belief to a new understanding of belief.


Here are some of my favourite segments/quotes:

“We were hungry and you gave us nothing to eat…Silence descended upon all of creation as the people pronounced their judgement on God.”

“For now, al we can comfort ourselves with is the possibility that the God we accuse is a God of our own creation. It is for this reason that Slavoj Zizek claims that the God we think we can understand is like a Tamagochi toy – our own creation which subsequently makes demands upon us.”

“Not only is Christianity atheistic insomuch as it rejects ideas of God which stand opposed to those found in its own tradition (the early Christians were called atheists because of their rejection of those deities worshiped by the Romans), but also there is a sense in which Christianity is atheistic because it rejects its own understanding of God.”

Context: acts of love - trying to understand how to truly give a gift.
“Here we are presented with three criteria for the perfect, loving gift – that is, one that we would not use in order to get a reward: (1) ther receiver does not know that he or she has been given a gift; (2) nothing is actually given; and (3) the giver does not know he or she has given anything.”

Reading from left to right. Orthodoxy = right belief. Orthopraxis =  right practice. No read it right to left. Orthodoxy = believing in the right way. Orthopraxis = practicing in the right way. “This means that the question, “what do you believe?” must also be accompanied by the question “How do you believe”.”

“speaking of God is never speaking of God but only ever speaking about our understanding of God”

“the Christian God destroys the idea of immanence and transcendence as opposite points in a diffuse spectrum, replacing this with the idea that immanence and transcendence are one and the same point.”

If that has sparked your interest, go read the book. I do not think it will disappoint.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Avatar and Reconstruction

This year I spent April in Australia with my mom. We were visiting the country to attend my best friend's wedding and to spend time with our relatives. During my trip, I had an unexpected spiritual encounter.

On the flight from Los Angles to Sydney, the woman seated across the isle from me introduced herself as an Avatar Master. I was immediately intrigued and asked her question after question to find out more. She talked about "awakening consciousness", "increasing compassion for others", "finding true happiness"and "resurfacing". She handed me the informational pamphlet you see to the right, and from that I discovered that she is a certified instructor of a 9-day self-improvement course which was created by teacher Harry Palmer, in 1986. She told me that this course has been taught all over the globe to prominent world and religious leaders and is a quickly growing non-religious movement. We talked for at least 30 minutes and she introduced me to sevearal concepts of humanity and self. When she found out that I was involved with interfaith work, she commended me for spreading compassion and we were mutually encouraged by one another's care for humanity. Our conversation left me very curious about the movement, particularly because she described the course as non-religious while using very spiritual language. As a result, I have spent some time checking out the website, www.theavatarcourse.com. I was hoping to find information about Harry Palmer and the history of the movement but there was not much available. So, I did a google search and wikipedia told me that Palmer was significantly involved with Scientology before creating this course material. 

While reflecting on this experience, I noticed that my interest and openness in grassroots spiritual dialogue has developed rapidly in the past year. I have developed a longing to hear stories of faith and life experience that have lead people to live as they do. I have developed a great respect and love of faithful people from various traditions because they have shared their compassion for humanity with me. After a long season of deconstructing my beliefs, I sense that I am now on the road to reconstruction. I am grateful that this blog has been a place to wade through it all. 

If there are any Avatar Masters, Avatar course graduates or Scientologists in Abbotsford it would be great to have you come to an interfaith meeting, or write a guest post on the blog so that we can learn more about you, your beliefs and the origin of your beliefs. Please leave a comment if you are interested. It would be a privilege and gift to have you share faith and your understanding of compassion with us. 

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Attempting to Touch the Present

Reflecting on Duncan’s Blog Summer 2012, I was poignantly reminded of the absence of “seasons” in my life this year. This has been a new experience for me. I have spent the past 20 years of my life learning a pattern of academic seasons. Terms, semesters, holidays…repeat. Though I did not always appreciate this flow throughout my life, sometimes summers seemed too short, a term would last for eternity, or time would pass in a blink of an eye, the flow of change was consistent. The cycles of change provided certainty, place, and anticipation. This year I have deeply felt the absence of these cycles as a life-sucking void. This came to a head at Christmas, where I went on a VERY short trip to Calgary for Christmas only to return to the exact same pattern of life I had just left. This return acted as the death stroke of my cycling through change.

It was not long after my educational experience ended last year that I deeply desired to sit in a classroom, to write a paper, especially to have my mind challenged and stretched. After years of education, I had developed an addiction to this stimulus. Graduation and “real life” has been like going cold turkey. It frequently manifests in the shakes, absence, and anxiety. This deep-seated anxiety cause by absence of the familiar has left me wanting. Like all great addictions, I have not resolved or “fixed” my addiction, I have transferred it.

The death of change and the unceremonious removal of an addiction forced me to seek other “seasons”. This year, like few before, I have been anticipating the natural seasons. I long for the change from rain to snow, from snow to rain, from rain to sun. I have been demarcating the seasons by finding my “fix” in the outdoor adventures I pursue.

This year I quenched my need for change and challenge by venturing outside. This year I became the “weekend warrior” at the ski hill, took on an early season backpacking trip, planted a garden, and in the last two weeks have reunited with an old friend - my mountain bike.

Solace in the snow:


Early season challenges on Washington’s Olympic Peninsula:


Touching the ground:


A past photo, of my renewed addiction:

With continued and increasing uncertainty regarding the future, I find myself attempting to touch the present and find a new flow.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Summer 2012

I am writing this post earlier than intended as we are still 2 months away from the 1 year anniversary of this blog. But it seems that perhaps, as we once again transition from the academic year into the months of summer, this is an excellent time to take stock of where have come from and where we are presently. My year has been a transition from unemployed, to student, to self employed. And as I look back on last summer, I can't help but think that blogging and writing and creating last summer and throughout this year was an important step and good preparation for this summer's challenge of making money in video production. (As an aside if you are interested in my photographic or video services, please let me know... a website is pending.)

One of the themes of Regent this year has been the repeated phrase: "everything is gift." This provided some of the impetus for my last post on imagining gift economics. Regent's convocation student address approached similar themes reflecting on Peter's experience at Jesus' transfiguration. Educational experiences such as Regent or CBC were compared to being on that mountain... They are not places we work for and build, they are places we are brought to and moments we are given and it is good to be there... But it is neither possible set up camp there as Peter desired, or through hard work recreate or return to that time for that is not what brought you there to begin with. The truth is that how we get places is complex, filled with people, randomness, and factors beyond our control... theologically one might insert the word providence here... 

My only point here is one that I have found encouraging all year: what looks and feels like failure may be the foundation for unbelievable success. Sometimes the road to where you are going is different than anticipated, feels unrelated and is frustrating. Sometimes we find success through failure or through stagnation or through unemployment. Sometimes it's obvious how things are connected and we may feel vindicated or difficulty may feel redeemed; other times it does not appear obvious as to why particular events or experiences were part of a journey. And yet I believe the alchemy of these experiences is important in preparing and shaping us hopefully for the better, even when we are unaware or unable to articulate it. 

So I anticipate summer 2012 to be a gift, just as 2011 was, despite its unconventional nature. I certainly have hopes and ideas of what I want it to look like, but mostly I want to try and be open for the surprises, for the nice weather, for opportunities to work and opportunities to rest, opportunities to read and opportunities to write, to take picture and make pictures, to laugh and cry... I expect nothing less than the fullness of life in all its glory and sorrow for this is what we have been promised - and in the midst of it, I will attempt to trust that the joy, the boredom, the work, the stress, the rest, and the love are all shaping my soul into the gift that my life is intended to be for you. I will try and be a present in the present (Sorry. It was so perfectly cheesy that I couldn't deny it.).